bleh

just about 4am and im here thinking of you before I pass out and lmao idk it was just supposed to be us yk, idk where things went so wrong. i still get reminded of you in everything and i miss you and I love you still. i really hate being alone but being with my friends isn’t really healing the hole that’s shaped like you. i think im starting to give up on the hope that you’ll be back soon lol maybe even ever (at least to talk to me). and i think the hope was better to have because im just in the worst mental state ever and some other things but idk. idk what’s really okay to say or not and what’s manipulative or not. well I don’t blame you for anything anyways. gn silvie hope ur doing better than i am. i really miss ur presence and ur voice and id do anything to hear it everyday of my life. byebye