song of the day

im genuinely so miserable without you, ive tried every type of distraction and it just doesn’t work. i typed a paragraph and realize how funny it sounds for me to complain with what you’re going through. it’s fine. i miss you and I love you. you were my best friend and my wife. i cry so much silv i cry so much nowadays. i hate my life without you. but that only means you gave it meaning. i looked forward to a future with you and ive never though that would be possible. I’m back in a terrible place but thats not your fault. i dont think i can grow to love myself. but who cares ill die one day and it wont matter at all.

https://open.spotify.com/track/2kn0fLwt9QRorHuGdmk6ze?si=pym3Kf4TRXa8g7F2R1yJeA

Sorry to keep saying it but i still love you.