song of the day

https://open.spotify.com/track/2KcQh6QnfN40xDTatsybsG?si=s7chXxfSTPK2V3vdD7ZSmQ&context=spotify%3Asearch%3Awaiting%2Balice

today i ate twice as normal and honestly im going to eat more not even bc im hungry but because im overeating because i guess maybe its a coping thing. but it’ll be fine since ive been eating less. errrr i dont know why im putting this in it’s not to make you feel bad but you’re still the closest ive ever been to someone and i have to tell u that I feel terrible about the fact that i know im not hungry im just looking for gratification & its something im aware of and can stop but im still going to do it. I miss you so much you were my everything I miss you I’m trying my best but It’s so hard it’s just so hard. im going to have a green tea too okay so well since ur in russia ik you can’t have any but ill have one for u. maybe u can make a coffee and think of me? i like to put cream in mine but warm milk works too and thats the way my grandma used to make it. instant coffee works too. well you wont even be reading this I think but yeah i like to hope sometimes u can read my mind or that you’re still keeping tabs on me or something. bye i love you sorry it’s late, though it’s noon for you at this time so maybe it’s a better schedule for me to post at this time. sorry rambling i like to talk to you i miss talking to you